A great day all-in-all. Got away from my computer for most of the day and got lots done. Came back while I ate my snack and lunch and had enough time to organize a coffee morning for next month and catch up with some planning.
Dinner was phenomenal but unfortunately my timing is off these days. Husband and E decided they were going to Karate tonight (I was sure that they weren't going back until next week) but it pushed dinner back until just after 7 when they walked in the door. It was also a larger dinner so I'm sitting her at 8 pm with a full tummy. There will be no 4K run tonight. Am I crushed? No, now that I know that I'm almost back to normal I'm not so antsy about taking the time off. I expect my run on Saturday to be really good.
The plan to be in bed, lights out at 10 pm is a very good idea. I get up with a bit more bounce in my step and feel a bit more centered in my day. Eventually, its my plan to wean off the naps. Using that time to quilt and entertain E. I'm really hoping that one of the specialist I'll see in the next three months can fix me. I'm tired of functioning on 55% energy.
I'll especially need to be back to normal if I choose to home school E. I'm still on a wait and see basis with that. Today, I was called to the gate. E prefers to sit in the dirt and throw it around rather then play with his peers. When asked why he doesn't play with the other boys he says that he has no interest in their games and doesn't want to take the time to teach them his games. What the hell am I supposed to do with that?
I worry that the gap will widen. I have no idea how to get him to mix with his peers. It seems odd that he doesn't even want too. Husband and I are now convinced that its time to test him to see if we need to be looking for private accelerated schooling. Its a hard place to be because I find myself constantly reminding myself that he's only 4 turning 5 next month. What should the expectation be? Is it normal for a child to not want the company of peers? I say normal but then E has never exactly followed any sort of normal pattern. He likes to play with his brother, as his brother usually plays the same kinds of games E enjoys. If he has a friend over and they are playing Wii then there's a common ground and E is fine to play or to watch. Karate, is much the same. What to do? What to do? What to do? I wonder if there will ever be a day when I'm not wringing my hands in worry.
Breathe in.....Breathe out.....Breathe in......Breathe out...... pheww that feels better. Good to put it out there. Get it off my chest. Oh cosmic void, if you've got an answer for me, please don't be shy.
40 years of marriage
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